Life...

Lake, Tanning, Hanging with friends, bonfires, long summer nights, hot summer days; it all sounds so good. Summer is around the corner and I'm super excited. looking out the window now I see water and its not frozen...woop woop!! Just one step closer to being spring and warming up. I'm so happy to graduate and move up in the world, get away from high school and become an adult, but I'm super scared too. I just don't know what to expect. In some ways I cant wait but on the other hand im soo not ready but when I think about it I dont think im ever gonna be ready unless I just go out and do it. Sometimes I just wanna stay carefree and worryless for my entire life, I mean why wouldnt you want to, come on! staying out late being surrounded by the people who know you best and who are always there for you. You cant honestly tell me that you wouldnt mind being away form parties staying out late beign supid. I know I cant be a teenager forever eventually im gonna have to grow up and be wise. Yeah i will still have all my friends but we will all have to grow up sooner or later, the constant parting will stop weddngs will start and familys will be made but honestly when you think about it if you live it up now you dont have to worry about regreting it later and wanting to party all the time when you have family. By the time I get to the point where I start a family I know I wont regret my teenage years and I will know that I lived it to the fullest. Im going to be the old lady sitting on her porch swing with her husbend and best friend and her husbend saying, "oh my goodness do you remember when..." not the one saying "oh my goodness I wish I would have..." or "we should have..."

Yours Always,
Torri Alexi Mayes
2-14-11