summertime

This summer is going to be crazy :) first off its GRADUATION!! then my mom and I are going to Mexico with one of my friends and her mom, then two days after I get back from Mexico I'm going to Colorado with my Choir. then I'm home for a while just hanging out with Friends cookouts going to the lake flip-flop tans and most of all riding with Aaron on the back of his bike :) he took me on my first ride today and I'm super excited for it to be spring. Into July I'm going to go to Montana to visit family there and shop :) summer nights are going to be amazing and my days are going to be full and busy yikes...but its worth it.

Torri Alexi Mayes
2-18-11

the things i do in study hall...

There are somethings in this world that you wish you could change, but your worrying about all the wrong things. No matter how much you talk about the past it will still Be the same. Think about who you are now not who you could have been if this would have been different. Focus on what will make your future better. Focus on your friends you have now not on the ones who moved away or you grew apart from. Even when your having the worst day ever make yourself turn it around. Only you can control how your day ends. You decide whether your going to cry yourself to sleep or laugh about your day.

Torri Alexi Mayes
2-15-11

Life...

Lake, Tanning, Hanging with friends, bonfires, long summer nights, hot summer days; it all sounds so good. Summer is around the corner and I'm super excited. looking out the window now I see water and its not frozen...woop woop!! Just one step closer to being spring and warming up. I'm so happy to graduate and move up in the world, get away from high school and become an adult, but I'm super scared too. I just don't know what to expect. In some ways I cant wait but on the other hand im soo not ready but when I think about it I dont think im ever gonna be ready unless I just go out and do it. Sometimes I just wanna stay carefree and worryless for my entire life, I mean why wouldnt you want to, come on! staying out late being surrounded by the people who know you best and who are always there for you. You cant honestly tell me that you wouldnt mind being away form parties staying out late beign supid. I know I cant be a teenager forever eventually im gonna have to grow up and be wise. Yeah i will still have all my friends but we will all have to grow up sooner or later, the constant parting will stop weddngs will start and familys will be made but honestly when you think about it if you live it up now you dont have to worry about regreting it later and wanting to party all the time when you have family. By the time I get to the point where I start a family I know I wont regret my teenage years and I will know that I lived it to the fullest. Im going to be the old lady sitting on her porch swing with her husbend and best friend and her husbend saying, "oh my goodness do you remember when..." not the one saying "oh my goodness I wish I would have..." or "we should have..."

Yours Always,
Torri Alexi Mayes
2-14-11

i just don't get it

Why do people feel the need to fight over texting? how does it get you anywhere, half the time you don't understand what the other person means and it creates a bigger fight. all the swearing in between ever normal word doesn't help either. i don't like being yelled at in person why would it be any better if its texted to me? i guess i will never understand what the point is. the way i see it it just causes a bigger issue. if you really have a problem with someone why don't you grow some balls and talk to them in person about it? it might not be as bad as it seems. it could even be a big misunderstanding also. so sometimes a fight is completely avoided because  you talked in person about it. call me crazy but i just don't get it

Torri Alexi
2-8-11

your supposed to be a role model...i have lost all respect

I don't mind getting criticized but when it comes to someone saying I'm selfish rude unorganized and UN dedicated to what I do. To be compleetly honest I get a little upset and usually cry especially when they know I put everything into what I do and have proved it to them before, its just not right. Criticism is supposed to be CONstructive not DEstructive and honestly if you cant criticize constructively then you probably shouldn't criticize at all. No one likes to be told that they suck and will never be anything in life...honestly who says that to a person. If someone were to say that to them then they would probably go cry in a corner. You shouldnt be a bully if you cant handle being bullied back. Someday the wrongs people do to others will come back and bite them in the butt. So i would make sure you clean your bridges before you burn them. There are somethings that cant be fixed once broken, and some words that cant be taken back once spoken.

Torri Alexi

2-7-11