ugh so today was long ready for so relaxation with aaron woop woop. i spent the entire day cleaing from when i got home from class at one till about five yuck :( oh well a much needed clean and now i have a beautuful house aaah the feeling of freshness. well aaron came home early from his hunting trip so now im (we) are making a nice dinner for us :) im so exctied stuffed porkchops with jalapeno popper pizzas and for desert some yummy apple tarts :) love it well gtg love ya all

journal

a while ago my councilor told me to start a journal to help me deal with my problems and to keep my self under control so i have decided to use thit as my journal :) first off today im in abittersweet mood my mommy is having a bday party for me but at the same time i dont feel important to some people you see me nd my roomate were bf/gf but we broke up a couple weeks ago. abviously i still love him and  sadly he doesnt feel the same anymore anyways i just dont get it we are lile a roler coaster one day hes nice and the next hes a dick just dont understand :( oh well im gonn make the best of today and hope his attitude changes i mean its my day the least he could do is be nice to me ugh oh well ttyl :)

Better days :)

soo lately i have been super stressed and upset to the point that i was sick. but a few good days have made my life oh so much better. first off my bf situation is much better we are achually not fighing all the time anymore, let me tell you the last few months have been hell on mine and his heart. yeah we are still broken up and living together but we have gotten over the fighting and arguing and not wanting to be around eachother. you know they always say it alwas darkest before dawn. anyways life its self has been doing me justice my birthday is in oh about 6 days :)))and i am soooo excited. im gonna be nineteen and well i guess there isnt much too exciting with that but anywhosers its still my bday haha tomorrow my mom is having a bday party for me because my brother and sister-in-law are back :) and i have been hearing through a little birdy that aaron is planning a party for me so im excited about that to and then on my achuall bday im gonna party it up :) hell ya! i cant wait to be a nother year older...just think its not gonna be too long befor im gonna be dreading my bday ugh i dont even wanna think about being old and wrinkley haha well i hope that when im old and wrinkley aaron will be old and wrinkley with me beside me :) well ta ta for now :)